Nose High ; Stuck Up.

2008-03-30T19:32:00.000-07:00

The bug with patterns on the back. As seen by Pearlyn, Peiwen and I.
The fat asshole we had to work with.

It's 10.34am on a beautiful monday. What am i doing up so early? Good question. I was supposed to be on my way to the hospital to meet my mother (my grand dad just got in). However, after bathing, my driving instructor called me to inform me that there would be a lesson today at 12pm. Sian diao right? Ohh okay, on the bright side, my mum is considering NOT to go to Korea because of grand dad being in the hospital(that's the downside of course). If we are unable to get our deposit back, then we would be going still. I want to meet the guys and girls later for a movie.

Yesterday, work was terribly boring. As you can see from the picture above, the fat and irritating mr know it all was the most irritating person i've ever worked with. There was also a girl who was not so pretty with a very big mouth and talks non stop. i would rather say that she was shouting all the way. My co-ordinater for the day reeks. Seriously, there was a point of time when i just walked away. Well, at least i have 72 dollars more in my pocket. HAhah.

2008-03-29T10:53:00.000-07:00

Damn. My mum just told me that i'd be going to Korea with her on the 2nd of April(coming wed) and will be returning on the 7th. AND, after that we will be flying to Thailand on the 9th and returning on the 13th. You have no idea how much i dread such holidays. I don't see the fun. Firstly, i have the fear of taking planes and secondly, hoildays are meant for me to spend it with my friends.I tried to convince my friends to go with me but none of them could. Alvin and Shifu will be going back to school on the day that i come home from thailand. This can get really depressing.

Oh yeah, i haven't been in a really good mood nowadays. I know why but i don't really want to know why. Anyway, my life is feeling a little empty nowadays so i have to start finding something to fill it up.

Today, stayed at home till dinner time. Met up with Pearlyn and Peiwen at gardens for dinner. At the bus stop, we saw a cute little bug with beautiful patterns on it's back. We had dinner at the market before going to cartel's for dessert.Jialong and Drusilla joined us. Planned Pearlyn's birthday before going home.

2008-03-27T09:19:00.000-07:00

CHOCOLATE CAKE = Not bad lah.
I'm still the hottest -not.
Compare and Contrast.
Sentosa, add in alvin, jialong and drusilla.

On second thoughts, i still posted pictures.

2008-03-27T08:21:00.000-07:00

firstly, i'd still like to say to siying that i'm still damn lazy to upload the photos. HAHAH. sorry lah.

ohh, today was sentosa day. Very little people turned up because it was a freaking last minute decision whereby we were on our way home at 10pm then someone just said: "arbo we tomorrow go sentosa lah?" hahah, damn cool lah. ohh, this reminds me that i haven't blogged about the day before.

Alvin had to go out with his godbrothers while Shifu was down with flu. 2 of my bestfriends aren't free so how? Just nice siying jio me out. hahah. Pearlyn and Peiwen they all also not free. So, siying and i went on a date. cool or not? We just walked around, met peiwen for awhile, then we decided to watch Rule No.1! hahaha. we took the couple seat, same price but bigger space mah. The show quite nice lah. 3/5. After that, met bro and dru. Walked around and they insist that we go eat chocolate cake at spageddies. Not bad lah. Then, alvin came to look for us and we played the sensor game for damn long DAMN LONG.

After that slacked outside for awhile,took pictures before going home.

Today, i went to the meeting place an hour earlier. Alvin didn't know i was going so he didn't tell me the meeting time. bastard. lol. sentosa was great, we played "crispy" <---- shifu, laugh. hahah, we have a new sport. The sun was so strong that within 30mins, i was burned like hell. We left the place for vivo then cityhall popeyes. my mood there wasnt good i dont know why. Maybe because of the sunburn. I hate sunburn. We continued with crispy before going to marina for walking. Decided to take 107 home. Played guess the song on the bus and of course, who better to choose than shifu to sing the songs. You should hear too, i swear you won't get it. hahah. decided to go to grapevine for awhile cos none of us felt like going home soon. (EXCEPT FOR SIYING) slacked there for about half an hour to an hour before going home. i just saw a quiz on pearlyn's blog and i think i'm gonna do it but this post too long already. Next time, perhaps.

2008-03-25T08:43:00.000-07:00

Hello. This is my first post since i turned 19. On the 22nd of March, went to Enoch's 1 year old celebration at Raffles the Plaza. Enoch is freaking cute i swear. After that, shopped around alittle before meeting the groupies at hotel room no. 1730. hahah. I think it was a really cool day although there was'nt much to do. What mattered to me was the people there. We played poker and watched tv. The best part for me would have to be the countdown. I didnt even realised it was my birthday until they started singing the birthday song. hahah. Another surprise would be that mum and sis came into the room with an ice-cream cake. As for my presents, groupie gave me a braun buffel wallet and my mum and sis gave me a surprise by hiding an ipod touch in the swensen plastic bag. hahah. then, after a few pictures. mum and sis left. i went around feeding everyone ice-cream cake. After that, we played fatal frame for awhile before we got bored. Some already fell asleep by then. Then there were a few of us left in the room. Our eyes were closed but none of us slept. We just chatted quietly in the room with occasional laughters. lol. In the morning, went for breakfast before going home.

- thank you all for your wonderful wishes. bestfriend vivian gave me a call :) royston and bestie were the first to wish me. ohh yah, special thanks to alvin and shifu (you guys know why) thanks to everyone who made my life a better one.

2008-03-21T08:49:00.000-07:00

Well, today was fun i suppose. A little of mahjong before watching movie with vivian. Spiderwick Chronicles is kind of nice.

The problem is, i have no idea why.

2008-03-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

So, i went to some bone specialist the day before yesterday. Took some X-rays then he says that my spine is slanted probably due to my sudden shot of height. The length of my middle finger to another middle finger is longer than expected. I even have to go for physiotheraphy, sian lah. Laugh too much at alvin already. ohh yah, he also said that there is something wrong with my heart and referred me to NUS heart specialist. 1 visit to the hospital and so many illnesess found....

19th of march was a very fun day.

Today, played mahjong at ah chow's house. Was afraid that i'd lose so i asked shifu to "kup" with me. In the end, we won 12 each. hahah. then there was the second round and we were losing alot at first but shifu won it back so we managed to break even. went home.

2008-03-17T08:45:00.000-07:00

My happy & sad muffins.
Don't be mistaken, that ugly face belongs to siying.
The slim dude
The Hot boy
IKEA, baby, IKEA.

Yesterday, baked muffins with siying, pearlyn,peiwen and mingjun. siying's darling's birthday was today so we went to mingjun's house to help her bake. Didn't know that 5 amateurs can actually bake successful muffins on the first attempt. hahah. After that, went to cityhall to look for shifu and had dinner together. All of us stayed for quite late at alvin's house downstairs to chat. went home at 4am.

Today, siying asked us to go IKEA with her. Quite fun lah. Anyway, my eyes hurt alot now. goodnight.

2008-03-15T07:04:00.000-07:00

Monster Mahjong
Models and Dressers Backstage
The wonderful bestfriend( not the only bestfriend) who is finally 18.

Right, back to updating. I have been enjoying myself lately i suppose. Mahjong sessions and birthday celebrations. Older brother turned 20, had a great celebration. Didn't know what to give him so i bought the birthday cake. went to grapevine after that and had lots of fun. Hahah, it's the times whereby 20 years later, you look back and laugh about it.

On the 12th, woke up real early to go to school. What for? to be the dresser for the year 3 fashion showcase. It is really inspiring you know, it makes me really wanna make clothes and put them on models and go on the runway. So, the backstage was really hectic. Models and dressers were running around. Oh yah, the models are damn hot. Whatever mix you want, you get. Dressers can be really fun cos i got to see many many hot naked bodies running around. It's like dressing live mannequins. So, spent 9am to 9pm in school doing just that.

went to shifu's birthday countdown after that it i would say im going to blame me for such a lousy celebration. I was supposed to plan it since no one did. It was a 18th birthday for christ's sake. i hope i can make it up on his 19th one.Got him a eggtart for his cake. There wasnt even a candle. Hope he likes the present though.

I think my blog is abit weird. I mean the blogskin and all. Hahah, no time to change lah.

I just watched the movie "click" again and it never fails to move me at it's very last part. I encourage you to watch it, seriously.

I think it's time for me to look into the mirror and say "Grow Up"

2008-03-03T02:51:00.000-08:00

I feel, terrible at this moment. It may be the monday blues or because that i just did another thing i'd regret. I hope nothing bad happens.

It's 6.30 now and no one's online. It's rather weird. I called shifu and found out that they are playing mahjong at leo's house. Well, i guess they thought that i have class or something thats why they didnt ask me along.

colin called to say that they are coming to gym tomorrow again, this time mingjun wants to come too. I'm not sure if they'd allow that though cos' there's still the rule of "2 guests per resident". Hmm.......

I guess i'm gonna just rot at home.

2008-02-24T20:52:00.000-08:00

I skipped class to watch the Oscar's today. That's the only good reason i have for myself to skip classes.

Every year, the Oscar's never fail to wow me. Here, are some of the highlights of the event.

Red Carpet Divas

Black is boring?- Black was the safest colour on the red carpet yet many stars still donned on the king of colours and strut theirs stuffs on it. Jennifer Garner(Oscar de la Renta) & Hilary Swank (Versace) shined in black as they had wonderful detailings on the gowns. Laura Linney and Ellen Page looked Dull and washed out on the red carpet. Well, you can't blame Ellen Page as she is rather young and shy. Kudos for trying.

Va-va RED. - RED was the colour for the carpet at this year's academy awards. Every star who wore red shined and gleamed like a real deal hollywood siren. Heidi Klum in Galliano, Ruby Dee in Kevin Hall, Katherine Heigl in Escada and even 15 year old disney sensation Miley Cyrus wore a striking red coloured Valentino gown.

WHAT a COMEBACK!- Last year, the 2 biggest misses (Anne Hathaway & Jennifer Hudson) both came back with a bang at this year's academy award. Anne Hathway knew how well one-shouldered gown fitted her and the colour red could do nothing but complement the colour of her skin. J.Hud stunned everyone with a white beautiful gown that had beautiful detailing on the neck.

Who knew trends?- Celebrities who are actually glamourous and fashion trendy. Cate Blanchett wore a beautiful floral printed dress. Jessica Alba donned on the favourite colour of the runway -purple while many sirens opt for the one shouldered gown. As they say, Greece is the word.

My Best dressed Pick(s) for the night. - Anne Hathaway, Jennifer Hudson, Heidi Klum & Jennifer Garner.

My Worst dressed Pick(s) for the night. - Julie Christie & Tilda Swinton.

Honourable Mentions- Cameron Diaz in beautiful pink & Marion Cotillard in a delicately designed and detailed dress by Jean Paul Gaultier.

The AWARDS.
I was rather upset about the fact that Atonement lost out on every single category except for Best Composing for a Motion Picture. Well, i guess that it's a rather fair night for everyone with every Picture winning at least one award in the night.

Juno- Best Screenplay- Diablo Cody (to think that she was a stripper) you rock!
Michael Clayton- Best Supporting Actress- Tilda Swinton( she was finally recognised as a good and serious actress ) i just didnt want ruby dee or saiorse ronan to win.
There will be Blood- Best Actor- Daniel Day Lewis (like who didnt expect that?)
La vie En Rose- Best Actress- Marion Cotillard- although i had never watched the movie, the less than a minute clip was good enough for me to like her and think that her performance so deserved the trophy. A not so surprised surprised win here.

No doubt was that No Country was the big winner of the night, taking home Best Picture, Best Directors and even Best Adapted Screenplay. One more win for the Coen Brothers in the night would make history.

I would love to see more of Johnny Depp AND WHERE THE HELL IS KEIRA KNIGHTLEY?

Oscars are fucking fun.

Singtel

2008-02-24T08:48:00.001-08:00

I had a wonderful weekend. Anyway, on friday was project presentation. So the whole class presented their 3D sculptures and everything and everyone stared at my one metre tall tube. They were wondering :"What the hell was that ugly thing?" Nevermind. My classmates were very eager to see what's inside so they asked the lecturer to view mine first, after halfway through the class. So, i explained my work and pulled the tube up. (It was supposed to be a one metre tall jelly) After i pull the tube up, the jelly(or rather water) rushed to every side of the plastic floor. Everyone was like :"OH NO!" Well, i was sad too but nevermind, I'm good at making comebacks. So, i presented the class with yet another sculpture. Ah huh, i did 2 while others did one okay?

Driving lesson was rather cool that day. Got to drive for another 1 and a half hour. It's rather strange that i actually have to pay money to drive . Seriously, the things i learnt can be self-taught or my sister can also teach me. It's just that i dont have a instructor's license haha.

Went to colin's house after that. I seriously think that Uncle Andy and Aunty Karen rocks. They are damn nice lah. Aunty Karen's cooking is really delicious i tell you. All the small little snacks definitely boosts your mood. Their humor is rather appropriate; giving you the kind of relaxed yet respectful feeling.

I shall blog about work another day. I'm freaking tired now and the oscar's on tomorrow. I'm excited. :)

2008-02-20T08:31:00.001-08:00

Yes lah. I'm blogging here again. Well, have been gambling way too much these days and losing everyday. Okay, it's final project week and i'm very busy. It's 12.34am already so i have to get back to my projects. Smile.

2008-02-17T10:20:00.001-08:00

I have no idea why. I dont feel good right now. It's 2.20am but i cant sleep. Maybe it's the empty growling stomach, or that weird feeling that something bad is going to happen. Oh well, i cant be that unlucky.

2008-02-16T08:18:00.000-08:00

Oh God, i think i nearly puked when i saw the posts i had 2 years ago. That would be the kind of people i'd always say that i hate. Oh well, how ironic. I guess this goes to show that i should go easy on teens like these. They will grow up someday.

Have a great day, people. If you happen to come by this blog of mine today, drop me an sms by 19th of February. Just do it. smile.

Multiply's down for the day

2008-02-16T08:03:00.000-08:00

I still think this is a very cool picture

Well, CNY has been great this year. Angbaos wasn't alot but well, cny ain't all about the money right? So, i think i may just revive this blog.

Isaac asked me what i would want others to think of me. I have the answers in my other blog. However, i'm still not sure what i want others to think of me. Is it really important? I think guys who have blogs are really weird.

I want to watch ALOT of movies now. Yes, ALOT. However, none of my friends understands Atonement and The Diving Bell and The Buttefly and are neither interested in CJ7 nor are legal to watch Sweeney Todd nor No Country for Old Men nor There will be Blood.

I think i've used "nor" in a very wrong way.

Oh well, it's time for the movie-lonely season again.

Thailand

2007-11-29T04:12:00.000-08:00

i am currently sitting on a sofa in the hotel room. i dont have much to do now so i've decided to post something. thailand is rather fun and shopping is cool, if you are a girl. i dont have any idea what to buy for anyone so yah... sadded. hahah. ok i donno what to say anymore. byebye.

2007-11-15T09:23:00.001-08:00

3 men were gathering one day to talk about how successful there sons were doing.The first man says, "My son has been doing so successful as a lawyer he got a mansion and shares it with his friend."The second mans says, "My son has been so successful as a doctor that he bought a converatable and a private jet for his friend."The third man says, "Well, my son hasn't been so "successful". In fact, I just learned he was gay and I've accepted that fact. I guess he must be doing good though because he lives in a mansion with his friend and owns a private jet and a convertable."

2007-11-11T00:40:00.000-08:00

maybe, i should just blog here again. maybe.

Are humans a blunder of God? or is God a blunder of humans?

2007-09-20T07:09:00.000-07:00

hehehahahhohololrotflmuahahah.

behind the disco, she gave it to them.

behind the disco, we had our little game.

behind the disco, lets do it again.

I'm doing well, i think. Take care.

2007-08-19T09:35:00.000-07:00

This was the place where the 6 of us ate. When i saw it, memories swirled around in my head. I felt happy and i felt sad.

Take care, people. :)

Update.

2007-07-31T07:57:00.000-07:00

Sorry people, ive been missing for so long. But i just wanna let you know that i wont be blogging here very often already. So i wont be linking or doing anymore updates to my profile. :) Oh, thanks fauzi and to mistgal? i have no idea who you are. Sorry, maybe i have forgotten.

So here is an update of my life now.

I am still doing very well in my life. :) I am currently learning Textile Manipulation and Textile Fundamentals. These subjects are to teach me how to dye, print shirts and to identify the many different types of fabrics used to make clothes. I printed 3 shirts already and am very happy with myself. I have no idea why people still think that i am emo, thats just not who i am. Alright, im getting back to my project alrd. Goodbye and sorry to my friends, i promise i will spend more time with you guys :)

2007-07-07T09:18:00.000-07:00

Hi, 07/07/07. It's kinda cool. Schoolwork is killing me, i flipped through tons and tons of magazines everyday.To hand in each moodboards depicting spring,summer,fall,winter, natural,classic,romantic,dramatic&creative. Also to bring in 3 tops and 3 bottoms to fit all of it into ONE mannequin. wtf lah. hahah, a tough one. Also learnt how to draw better now. take care. Go Green!

2007-07-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

Life's been great. I know i have wonderful friends. I hope you've been doing fine. See you soon.

I miss you, all of you.

Let me be your freedom, let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you beside you, to guard you and to guide you.
Say you'll love me every waiting moment, promise me that all you say is true.
That's all i ask of you.

I'm still curious, what reason do you have to hate me so much?

2007-06-29T22:47:00.000-07:00

School has been relatively fun. I learnt alot about things that i would never even notice when i go shopping. So shopping now would never be about clothes only.

I thought i could survive school without the Groupie(TPers) but i was very wrong. Life would never be fun without them, seriously. I met them for lunch and had a laugh that was really cool. My classmates were emphasizing on how loud we laughed. I could actually pespire when laughing. I absolutely wanna thank god for placing them in my life.

Shopping at zara made me spend another 80dollars. wth man. But it's fun shopping with friends.
I saw this "game" of writing down your weirdness in bro's blog and decided to do it myself.

1) I rub my chest whenever i get nervous.
2) I dont brush my teeth in the morning IF i know im going to have orange juice for breakfast. BUT will do that after breakfast.
3) I count my money whenever im free.
4) I cannot tolerate the word "forever".
5) I like pineapples but i never liked them on haiwaiian pizzas.
6) I would slap my own face when i've done something i regretted doing.
7) Although i have my own bed, i dont usually sleep on it.
8) I enjoy staring at my wardrobe whenever i have nothing to do.
9) I am at my worst mood at the time 4pm-7pm because of sunset.
10) I'm not afraid of the dark yet i cant sleep in the dark.

Thats all. Not very weird right? :)

2007-06-27T07:05:00.000-07:00

Hi all. Long time no see. I've been doing fine. I hope you are too. Been going to school recently and it's quite fun. Lessons are held at orchard, little india occasionally. Take care. :)

2007-06-18T08:04:00.001-07:00

2007-06-17T09:31:00.000-07:00

Church Camp.

It was a really great day today. Went to church cuz i really want to meet them. Then went to vivocity with them before going back to orchard to have father's day lunch. Then went back to vivocity to find them again. hahah. We sat at starbucks for 6hours!!! We had a heart to heart talk and its really nice lah. It's time to amend some things.

I would still like to say this : True friends will be VERY understanding.

2007-06-16T10:08:00.000-07:00

Can someone lead me out of this road?

I practically spent my day solely on vcds. There is this really nice hongkong serial named" tang xin feng bao". I really like it, my kind of show. I went to meet 4n1b to celebrate aikguan's birthday too and reached home at 1am, so its 1.10am now. And i also thought about many special people in my life, special people means family & friends. I think i've failed to make them know that they actually have a importance in someone's life. Thus, i will improve on that. I absolustely want someone who i can talk to everyday. A girlfriend would be great, a bestfriend would be splendid.Any takers?

Happiness can be found in one's heart. Can you find yours?

2007-06-15T09:24:00.000-07:00

Why i want to be a baker.

I'm Back!!!! Hahahah. Camp was a blast! I had lotsa fun in the past 4 days. I absolutely love camps. So, camps made me happy BUT also made me think alot. Too much. I tried to face my problems but then it backfired. Trying to find a way to solve it now. Camp also made me think alot about friends. Do i really have good friends? If the whole world turn against me, will there be anyone withe me? I cant think of anyone now. I hope i will have one soon. I will search hard. Goodnight. :)

Do not be weary of doing good.

2007-06-11T10:26:00.000-07:00

So, it was a rather satisfying day. I woke up at 11 to have breakfast before sleeping again till 2+. Wanted to pack my bag but i didnt. oh well. So i went to meet the groupies!!! Hahahah. We went to quite a few places today. And of course, the movie premier of TAN SIYING! hahah. The dress code was green for girls and white for boys. After movie was pratashop. How cool can it get? I laughed my way through the whole supper. Then came home. Ohya, kudos to my bro for bringing on a trend. It was the collar T with a singlet. Quite introversial. I didnt really like it but topman did. It's their uniform now. I think my bro started the trend cuz he is the first person whom i saw wear it. Oh, shrek 3 is rated 3/5. It's really funny but the storyline is very expected. And dont miss me cuz i'll be gone for 4 days. BUT, i'll miss you!

My love will find you when you're lost, my heart will save you when you're gone.

2007-06-10T21:01:00.000-07:00

Sunset, i never enjoyed it's beauty.

Bloody hell..... i had only 3 hours of sleep yesterday. 200 pounds of beauty : 3/5. Its kinda nice. I am still going to get plastic surgery. So i woke up at 9 to send my sis off at the budget terminal. It looks really nice, like an expo. Then went to paragon to eat lunch before meeting jacx,van,steph&beck to go shop for john's present. After that, met keith and dan before going to john's 18 birthday bash. Great party. Saw many people i missed there. Then went home and i was dead tired and i fainted on my bed. (my sister's bed) it's mine for 18 days!!! :)

The question is there but the answer took flight.

2007-06-09T07:16:00.000-07:00

One word to describe Notes on a Scandal : "Marvelous". It's a piece of art. So beautifully crafted yet wickedly entertaining. Worthy. So, sleeping is a really difficult thing. The night is dark, too dark. I need to kick a habit. Watching tv in the middle of the night. Today is the 12th day i slept on the sofa. My toe feels better now. My sis is going on a mission trip to thailand tmr for 18 days. I have been watching way too much tv. I need to take a break. I cant wait for school to start yet i cant bear to see the holidays end. What do i want? Which road do i take?

Some people say they know the meaning of loneliness but they know nothing, nothing at all.

2007-06-08T05:50:00.000-07:00

I cant say much lately cuz i havent been going out. Been going through alot of thinking. Trying to find what i want. I feel kinda empty, yet filled. I still fear it, very much. Dvds are great. Crash definitely deserved Best Picture. Melissa P. is very sexual. So, i hope i can go out tomorrow. Still cant figure out why my toe still hurts. Adious.

Thy not de lie shall not be told.

2007-06-07T09:15:00.000-07:00

I stayed at home the whole day today. I didnt realise how bad my leg was till it swelled like a pig. Okay, not a pig. But it was so purplerish. My mum insists i seea doctor so now my foot is wrapped like a "ba zhang". How cool. Gonna contnue my chionging of vcds and dvds alrd. Seeya.

2007-06-06T09:21:00.000-07:00

I woke up at 8am just to go to Bedok to buy fish and have breakfast. How cool. Then came home to sleep before going to parkway with mum, aunt and cousin. Then went to soccer at weehow's house. I sprained my bloody toe and i cant bloody walk properly now. wtf. Okay, goodnight.

Everyone has a place, if you dont, find it.

2007-06-05T09:16:00.000-07:00

I seriously am not in a good mood today. Went shopping with mum,sis and bro then had dinner. Then came home. Watched Babel and found out that it is a very nice show. Very engaging. Kinda sexual too. Then slept at..... 4am. Bye.

When you truly love somebody, they stay in your heart forever.

2007-06-04T02:09:00.000-07:00

It takes us to another place.

Today, i went to a funeral. It's kind of a thing that would make me sad. But then, it also reminded me of how short out life is. Losing a love one is really sad thing. I hope time will numb the pain. I ran all the way from that bus stop home only stopping once. I'm glad my stamina has improved. Campus superstar kicked their best looking male away on the 1st day. I slept at 4am. Take care.

Death will take you before you even say: "alahbalkahthinabusukabolabola".

2007-06-03T10:46:00.000-07:00

Yes, i miss that ugly school.

I am in a "i'm worrying about money" situation now. I really want to save up but i seriously have a problem because i have a habit of buying clothes. I can never get enough. I need to learn to spend money wisely. No more nice meals, no more cabs no matter how tired am i, no more vcds, LESS clothes. I have a very expensive future. I need money to open up my own boutique, i need 50k for bachelor in psychology, i need other money for my other matter of interests like baking, culinary, hairstyling and etc. Damn it. So i had a very meaningful day today. Celebrated grandma's and aunt's birthday at SAFRA. Then headed to Mount Faber to have a drink. We had a little cousin thingy that was really great. I certainly had fun. Now, i feel tired but i cant sleep. I dont know why. I'll try. Goodnight.

Time and tide waits for no man.

2007-06-02T09:17:00.000-07:00

This was my official entry for CP youth designs. Like it?

I woke up at 11am today just to watch pokemon. Oh ya, The Departed is definitely a nice movie. Worthy of it's oscar best picture. Highly recommended. So, today was the celebration of Weiting's birthday at THE ZOO. Damn cool lah. How long has it been since i went to the zoo? It was really fun. Too bad i couldnt join them for the dinner as i had to attend a wedding dinner. I was like so late already and my mum kept nagging. Hahha. Arrived at the wedding of my sister's bestfriend(also my friend). Her name is Esther and she is 21 this year. A planned marriage. How cool. I definitely will have my wedding soon. I have it all planned out already. I just need a bride. Any takers?ohya, its 12 plus alrd so.........
Marriage is a divine thing whereby two people form the strongest bond.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY WEITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

Music is like Love; You get attracted by the melody then you get know the lyrics. Music & Lyrics is a really good movie. I recommend it. So, i spent the whole of today doing housework then napping. sorry for not going out with stan,steph and gang today. I'm going to the zoo tomorrow with groupie! How nice. I am going to go watch The Departed already. Goodnight.

Its not me who have drifted, it is you who have abandoned.

2007-05-31T08:36:00.000-07:00

I'll be waiting, waiting for you.

Well, i dont really know what to say right now. I went to have lunch just now with family and relatives then went to borrow vcds to watch at home. Went out with parents to go shopping in town before coming home. No one asked me out. I know all of them have very good reasons. it's okay, i'll wait. Chicago is a great movie. "If you cant be famous, be infamous" There are a whole lot of things i wanna do in my life. I'm gonna make time for it. Gonna go try and get some sleep already. Goodbye.

Girls are liars, just like boys.

2007-05-30T09:04:00.000-07:00

A picture i edited a year ago. I was referring to that guy up there.

I had to wake up bloody early just to go school to hand in my project. Actually its not that early lah. Normal school time. But i was damn tired cuz i didnt sleep much the night before, again. Had breakfast with jl, pearlyn and peiwen. Damn cool lah, so long never see them alrd. Oh ya, pearlyn actually says she misses me(in a friend/friend way). Thats so sweet of her. She is only one of the very few people who actually misses me as a friend. I handed my project before viewing young amazing singers on youtube then headed home. I slept all the way from 12-5 before meeting isaac to accomapny him cut hair. Then went home and then went out again to cityhall with godbro, mum and aunt. Had dinner, walked around before coming home. I will see a doctor tomorrow if i am still not feeling well or am still having a sleepless night. Take very goodcare and please date me out. I'm really free.

I like things that no one does.

2007-05-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

The night life.

Its the 3rd day today that i havent met up with my friends. It feels like it's been quite a while. I only had 3 hours of sleep today. I fear the night. How can i sleep later? It's a dread. Take good care. Ohya, congrats to Japan for winning Miss Universe. I'm still having a bad stomach. Damn it, i have to go back to school tomorrow to settle some project stuffs. I want to sleep.

They say friends will be friends forever.

2007-05-28T09:11:00.000-07:00

Forever is a never ending road; We never know if it exists or not.

Excessive orange juice gives you a bad stomach. If you haven't praised someone, do it. It makes them really happy. I always thought about what to blog about, but forget everything when its time to blog. I was supposed to be spending the day at home rotting but ended up at grand's house the whole day. Quite meaningful. I have so much things in my brain that i want to do. I really want to learn how to bake, i really want to learn about hairstyling. I want to do so many things. Oh ya, i still fear forever. really. It's making me lose my sleep. I dread going to sleep everyday. This explains my latenight still tving habits. I need to solve this one last problem i have. I think i can bring a great impact to people if i share with them what im feeling now. If i am going to face my problem, it would be a challenge to everyone with a belief. Especially christians. It may make them lose their faith. It made me lose mine. Maybe its because i'm different. I guess.

Affect the people around you in a good way. It's hard but please do.

2007-05-27T09:21:00.000-07:00

When i fall in love, it will be forever.

Hi, for a start, i went to church today. The feeling is.... weird. I dont feel like i belong anymore. The people, they've changed. They no longer make me feel at home. I don't know why, it will be hard for me to go back again. After church, i finally got to go out with sam,jac,van,beck&steph. Like , whala! I seriously enjoy going out with them. We had lunch and then shopped around town till 5plus before me, going to join the guys for PC 3. Quite a good movie. 4/5. It's just alittle too messy. But it really relates to what im thinking. They talked about forever. After that went to eat at amk before coming home. Ohya, my classmates and church friends thinks im tan. finally. I need to save money and stop spending!!!

Let me be a sweet sweet sound, by your ear.

2007-05-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

I have a very nice view from my house.

Gosh, i've been sleeping much, so much today. But it was a great day, a really greeat day. I woke up at 8 to go to school. Had APEL lessons. Was supposed to share emotions so i shared happiness infront of 20+ strangers. I talked about how a happy person i am now. Lol. Then went home and then watched tv, went out for lunch with mum and sis before going home. I slept at 1 and woke up at 6. siao siao. Then took a bath before going out to celebrate my mum's bday! Her birthday is actually 27th lah but got something on. We went to eat at Cocoa. After that we had family shopping which is really really fun. We bought alot of stuffs with my dad paying for it. ahahha! but i think im seriously addicted to buying things. And i bought flowers, perfume and bag for my mum (shared with siblings). Then we went home. I'm gonna watch tv before sleeping again. Tomorrow will be me going back to church( only because im meeting them to go out). AND its another groupie outing tmr! PIRATES 3!!! yoho yoho! Goodnight! :D

When our lives collide, my heart decides.

2007-05-25T09:13:00.000-07:00

Okay, i woke up real early today to go to SRS for "meet the parents". Jiale can actually be top 8 in his class after getting 4 Us. wtf? I saw ms Koh. How nice. I really miss sec sch. After that, i went to kovan mrt to meet weehow to go queue for doughnuts. We reached at 10am.wth. I didnt even feel like eating them. lol. then leo and alvin came too. It took us 3 hours to get the doughnuts. I decided to buy 6 (3 for me, 3 for jl).

We then went to marina square to eat mac before going for bowling! It's still my favourite thing. Then i went to shop around myself while jl and alvin play pool. (the rest went home) I saw a really 3 really nice top so i asked them to come take alook. It was like only 5 mins, 1 gone, 1 dont have size. So i bought only 1. Alvin bought the one i really like but got his size and he likes it too. so we each bought 1 :). Oh ya, i only ate 1 doughnut and jl ate 2. We sold the other 3 to Ronn(guy from topman) on the condition of him giving me a 30% discount. Hahhaha. We even exchanged numbers. After that, 3 of us came to my house, change then go alvin house then go soccer! I love soccer. But im not really good at it though. I need more practice. i need to improve. Came home and realised i have to go sch tmr for 1 last presentation. Damn it. Its not even done yet. Less sleep tonight i guess. :) Chill.

I may not be able to give you the moon but i guess i'll give you my heart.

2007-05-24T08:54:00.000-07:00

Cuz my happiness is built on your happiness.

It's official! Holidays are here! Interview report: checked. Graphic T-shirt designs: checked. Reflection and Evaluation: checked. One more APEL project to go and i'm so done! Hahhah. I'm glad that i've been doing fine for the past "block" (yes, thats what they call it). I am getting along well with my classmates. They are super nice. You know, i don't really care if you want to be friends with me anymore. It's time to accept the truth, you cant be liked by everyone. So be it. I've done my best so the rest is up to you. Think to yourself, is it all worth it? Goodnight :)

When i close my eyes for one last time, at least i know i've tried.

2007-05-23T08:12:00.000-07:00

Lights, they brighten up your night.

Yes la, i've completed 2 of my projects. 2 more to go. I spent the whole of today at home watching tv and doing projects. How boring? Tomorrow is my presentation so i cant afford to go meet the guys to watch soccer at 2am. Went to eat at heartland mall. I really want to get my hair cut. Thing is, i dont know what to. I seriously envy hot people cuz they look good in anything. I wanna buy more things!

When i turn around, i'll be hoping to see your smile.

2007-05-22T09:21:00.000-07:00

I would call today a hectic day and this week a hectic week. I have a report due today, a project due on thurs and another one on friday. But look on the bright side, holiday is just 3 days away. Yippee! I'm having a really bad cough now. So much so i cant really breathe. Darn it. Ive been missing out on friends gathering and i miss them alot. I have to continue my projects already. Take care.

Take my hand, turn to me, say you'll love me.

2007-05-21T08:10:00.000-07:00

I took this at Sentosa. I love it.

Today was the first day i stayed in school til 9.30pm. Darn it. Well, i went to celebrate my aunt's birthday in the morning before accompanying my mum to shop around before going to do my project. Oh, i enjoy hanging out with materialistic people because they are the people who dont think that much and is easily contented. I'm doing fine.

Even the slightest hint of sunset can get me running.

2007-05-20T08:44:00.000-07:00

I thought i could go out today but i didnt. Actually i did, my grandma's house. I think ive been pampering myself too much. I need to save up. Oh ya, my cousin ran away from home so my dad had to go and fetch him back. I am going to search for that someone working in the fashion industry tomorrow. I need him/her for my project. Have a good day.

Tell me your story and i'll put it in mine.

Happy Birthday Perly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-19T06:28:00.001-07:00

Today was a day at home. I couldnt decide what to do. I wandered around my house for no particular reason. I wanted to go meet the guys for soccer but didnt feel well so i didnt go. I hope i get to go out tomorrow! :)

Love will not be in my dictionary for the weeks to come. take note: weeks.

2007-05-18T19:27:00.000-07:00

It was a cool day. CCN day. Its a "eve of national day funfair" replica. My stall sold cheesedogs and who ever knows cheesedogs could be so popular? Sold out in less than 3 hours. WTH. We had a really big earning and i would consider selling them when im jobless some other time. hah. After that, it was another groupie meet to celebrate ang and kellyn's bday. but ang couldnt make it. So we ate at magic wok again. We bought for kellyn 14 floating balloons and her long-awaited fighting fish. We continued to slack outside hougang mall before going home. How cool?

With friends like you people, how lonely can i get?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLYN WEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-17T07:28:00.000-07:00

Hi, i had a happy but sick day. I dont know whats wrong with me. Just a little cough and stomach unwellness i guess. I thought of something cool today. Many people complain that life is not fair but i think that it is wrong. I find that life is fair, too fair. Dont you have happy times in your life? Yes right? Be glad. Cuz you are not the only person in the world so give other people a chance to be happy too. Its impossible for everyone to be happy at the same time.

I dont know what you're thinking but i will make myself ready.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-16T07:20:00.000-07:00

I have been kinda happy for the past few days. Its a good thing and i'm loving it. I guess the reason why im happy is because i had sort out things that were messing my head up. Not everybody can give up hate, that is why not everybody is happy. After learning much through experiences, not to say that i have much or anything. I think that im a person without much hate. I am willing to forgive and forget. Try giving it up, it will make you feel better.Oh ya, when i say i love you, i dont usually mean bgr but im refering to my friends.

I dont need a reason to make you smile everyday.

2007-05-15T05:56:00.000-07:00

I've got the "im gonna be sick" feeling. I feel like puking and i have a headache. Well, i dont know what to talk about today. I just wanna say enjoy the company of siying,pearlyn,peiwen,drusilla,cheefai and bro in school. Projects projects and more projects. I hope i can manage it well.

There will be a day where you and i will talk again.

2007-05-14T06:38:00.000-07:00

Yeah! I got an A! an A an A an A!!! Hahahah, i got my first A! I'm so happy! I couldnt believe i scored the highest for the project "STYLE". Okay, so school was fun today. Went to TM with siying after school to eat before taking a long bus home. hmm.... i thought about something cool today. I love it. See you soon!

Life is not about the number of breaths you take but the moments that took your breath away.

2007-05-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

You know? I've always thought that im a good friend. I feel that my friends would like me and think that im a angel sent to be beside them. But i guess i was wrong. I'm just too disgusting, thats the word for it. I dont blame anyone but myself. I will be my best. I'm not going to just try, I will be. I'll keep my bloody mouth frequently shut, i'll keep my bloody face away. I'll be there when you need me. I'll walk with you even when the sky is falling. Believe me once more. I'll be the best damn friend you will ever have.That's what friends are for.

I had a happy day, looking forward to another day.

2007-05-12T21:21:00.001-07:00

Is it that hard to be happy?

Happy Birthday Stanley Gunn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-10T07:35:00.000-07:00

I had a really fun day today. It was a late sentosa trip but i got to take a trip on nearly everything there. It's cousin beatrice's birthday today so my uncle and aunty invited my mum and i to tag along. We did. Firstly, we took a cable car ride(full glass) all the way from mount faber to sentosa, then we went to watch the "sound of the sea" at sentosa. I rate it 2/5 cuz it has a very lousy storyline. But the lightings were way cool. Then we took the "skyride" and then the cable car again. The view was simply wonderful. We had dinner on mount faber and seriously, its too cool. My presentation is tomorrow and im presenting "punk fashion". Im so the wrong person to be doing that. Hahah. Best work will be exhibited. Photography is included. I hope my group does well. :) I miss my friends again.

I'll bring you to the most wonderful places i've ever known.

2007-05-09T07:37:00.000-07:00

Class ended really early today. But i had to go to the freaking dental to wait to have my "bracket" fixed. I am seriously not doing much work in the group project that is due on friday. I really dont want to fail. I need to buck up, i need to wake up.

Love can touch us one time and last for a life time.

2007-05-08T09:22:00.000-07:00

Damn it, 20% of my overall is based on my personal style. I am going to fail because i dont think i have good style. School was still fun today. Got to go home at 4! But stayed on for "dinner" and also accompanied valarie for her bball practise so the few of us sat there till 6. Went for stan's chalet and played soccer. I laughed like there's no tomorrow. I had fun. Then celebrated his birthday then we left in a lorry. So many of us in the lorry! It was seriously something i will remember for the rest of my life. Friends, all of them rock my life.

I wanna get inside your head but im afraid i wouldnt stay.

Happy Birthday Farah Yau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday Natalie Lau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-07T05:44:00.000-07:00

I had my first presentation today. My teacher and classmates seemed to love it until i told my teacher i took only half an hour to do it. She is definitely going to fail me. I feel really comfortable hanging out with my old friends. Today, i asked them if they think im a good friend. They said yes. But when i asked them why? they couldnt answer. I couldnt answer why they were good friends too. I really wonder how do you define a good friend. I will try to find out. From now on, i will try to do every single thing with much thoughts so that i wont be misunderstood. Give me a chance, i promise i'll be good. Damn it, i swallowed one of my braces' studs. Goodnight. :)

Do you remember the happy days?

2007-05-06T03:28:00.000-07:00

I guess i have nobody to blame but myself for the plight i am in now. Am i worrying too much? This feeling sucks.

2007-05-05T23:27:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning to enjoy school, i've finally met people who understands my language. Academy awards, dreamgirls, fashion etc. I met up with Groupies finally and i was really happy. I love them and i certainly love their laughters. I can live with nothing but their laughters. Seeing people happy makes me happy no matter what. But i seriously cannot lie to myself anymore, there is this big problem with me that i have to solve soon. I'm too affected by it. So much so that i cant concentrate on anything else. My classmates scares me, they know things that i dont. They are mostly 8pointers to 14pointers. Okay, out of point. Anyway, i had a drink yesterday night and it made me think more. I cant be down so long, i need to move, move to a better place. For the better good. I cant cling on to whats not there anymore. Like what my wonderful friends said,"no use crying over spilt milk". I will be careful in the future. I've learnt my mistake. I was reminded of something while watching sp3 which i think is damn useful. Revenge is never good and friends will never bear grudges.

I know you are a good person so please dont prove me wrong.

2007-05-03T05:48:00.000-07:00

We learned about fashion changes today. It was really fun. I got to know more classmates today and there are actually 4 guys in my class. We actually watched project runway in class. However, i really hate DiESs although it was better today. I really miss my friends but i just cant seem to find the time for them. Lessons end at 6 everyday. I hope i get to see them soon, real soon.

I want to walk with you, will you let me to?

2007-05-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

Hi, i absolutely loved lesson today. Made 4 new friends, yang, ethel,peiyun and valarie. I realised how small the world is and i shall elaborate why. Valarie, happens to be siying's pri sch mate. Peiyun happens to be Pearlyn's goodfriend. The both of them happpens to be good friends. Then ethel, happens to be peiyun's cousin and also isaac's cellmember. Yang, is abandmember. Oh, we learnt about history of cosmetics today and tmr will be about fashion changes. How exciting. I seriously dread going to digital essentials though. Anyway, it night time again. How fast? I cant fall asleep again. Its been only a day and i miss my friends already. I hope i can miss all the DE classes. Now, i'm gonna try my best to sleep. Goodnight.

Vulnerable boys are sexy, vulnerable girls are eeky;
Confident boys are disgusting, confident girls are hot.

2007-05-01T07:16:00.000-07:00

My mind is in a mess, i need to sort it out. I hope that tomorrow morning when i wake up, everything will be alright. Am i a bad friend or am i just simply unlikeable? Disgusting, maybe thats the word for it. I didnt know sleeping was such a difficult thing. I fear the night, i really do.

Tell me you want me cuz the feeling is great.

2007-05-01T00:33:00.000-07:00

I am not in a happy mood nowadays. I seriously long to have a time where i can laugh, really laugh.I do not know why am i so moody. Maybe i do, i just dont feel like telling anyone, thus having a blog for me to rant is a very good thing. Some people have no idea how dumb they are. Seriously, their actions affect people and they simply dont care. And you seriously cannot be nice to people in this world. Because being nice to people makes them think that you have a hidden agenda. Why cant we just be nice? Being nice doesnt need a reason. We're not hypocrites just by being nice. And i swear to whatever that is up there that i will try to be a better friend. All you need to know is that i come with a pure heart. I dont scheme, i dont stab. If there are any things i did wrong, please give me a chance, i didnt mean it. And seriously, dont think you know what im thinking just by looking at my face or hearing what i say. Everything i've done is for your better good.

Happy 17th Birthday Ah Chow GuangRong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-30T02:57:00.000-07:00

I am currently in school now. Just finished my 1st lesson. Good thing was that i made friends. Ohya pearlyn's friend and siying's friend is in my class. How cool. Bad thing is, i can forget about my merit cuz i definitely am going to fail the subject i am taking now. DiEss, whatever that means. Waiting for drusilla before going to ahchow's 1st birthday celebration with his friends. I nearly fell asleep in class cuz i couldnt understand what the teacher was saying. All i know is that we were to draw outlines.

2007-04-29T08:34:00.001-07:00

Friends. They can lift or crush you. It depends on what kind of friends do you have. Think. What kind of friends do you have? When you are down and out, are there any friends who is there to give you a helping hand? When you do something, do your friends encourage you or say something negative? When you make a mistake, do your friends still stay by your side or blame and leave you? Every friend is real and true. But do they give you a positive impact? I definitely love all my friends and I care about my friendship with them. Please care more about your friends because friendship is a very sacred thing.

I want to make the world happy.

2007-04-28T09:46:00.000-07:00

Hi. I realised that my past posts have been way too emo. So emo that i couldnt think properly, and that is not who i want to be. The reason behind me being emo would be of reasons that i would not say here. Anyway, there are some people who seriously have a problem they do not know themselves but if you tell them, they would blame you. You get what i mean dont you? There some friends who dont trust me as much anymore. Things change but i dont want them to. I seriously have put in alot of effort in trying to maintain my friendship with many people but they just dont see it the way i do. As i've said, everybody views things differently. I dont blame them. I also have decided that there is no way am i going to end my life soon because i am going to stay in this world as long as i can to observe and discover the mysteries of life. Oh yeah, just a word of advice, there some people you can trust but there some people you cant. Look carefully, you'll never know.

When the lord said to me: "Are you my mistake, or just another toy of fun?"
I said: " Oh god, the bible is not true. If it exists then there wont be you."
Then God says:" Oh my boy, why do you say so?"
I replied:" Cuz one of the verses says i dont exist but i actually do."

2007-04-27T08:33:00.000-07:00

I didnt want to write a post that feels emo. But sad to say, thats what i am feeling now. I seriously dont understand humans. Maybe its because im the odd one out. I am seriously going to end my life soon if these doesnt stop. Im going to go ask that guy up there sitting on his comfortable throne, why? I really cant take it anymore, no one can help. My head hurts, my teeth aches.God!

I begged, "Oh God, please answer my prayer for the very 1st time,
all i see is the dark clouds whelming up the skies.
Hold me close to you, please hold me close to you,
a good boy i'll be, if my prayer comes true.
I hate the life i have but please dont let me hate you.
What can i do? To make you come true.

2007-04-26T07:08:00.000-07:00

I will never trespass again.
I have very understanding parents.
I want to eat so many things but i just cant.
I am thinking too much again, how am i going to sleep later?
I simply hate orange lights.
School will be from 9-6 starting next week.
I miss my friends, alot.
I miss you, too much.
My mind is going to blow, i dont know what to say anymore.

2007-04-24T04:23:00.000-07:00

I'm lost in the darkness, there's no one to hold,
I've got so many things to say but nothing could be told,
Miseries and sorrow thy so hard to mould,
What could be done? To end this road.

I looked at my life and i know that it sucks,
I ruined things that meant that much,
What can i do to make it true?
Of the hardship that ive got to pull through.

God is not a good friend,
He gave me a school but took away my friends,
He gave me a hope but a bigger disappoint,
I've got no one to blame but me myself,
For believing in him was such a stupid thought.

2007-04-23T08:33:00.000-07:00

I thought about my life. What's so great about me? There isnt a single thing i like about myself. I dont know why but i feel damn fcuked up now. I got into my dream course but nothing good is happening to me. I dont know why. Freak, freak, FREAK!

I stand alone waiting, no one comes to bring me home.

2007-04-22T09:13:00.001-07:00

People change, i agree. So do i but not for the good. The world will not come crushing down on you just because nobody likes you but the world will crush on you when even you yourself dont like you. That is what's happening to me now. I have so many things to say but seriously cant say. I feel really vexed now, really. All sorts of emotions filling my head, why must this happen to me on the night before my 1st day of school? Damn it. Although i very much want the person to know how im feeling, but i dont think that person even cares. Nothing can really describe what i feel now. All i wanna say is "i love you".

Oh its so obvious, why cant you just tell?

Happy 17th Birthday Drusilla!!!

2007-04-21T23:00:00.001-07:00

I found a truefrientest thing yesterday and decided to make one myself. My friends did mine and i did theirs. It made me realise somethings. Firstly, i wanna say that all the questions in my blog is relevant. Only constant readers of my blog can actually get it right. For those people who i did your test, i realise that one of you, although i did bad, it doesnt mean we arent close friends. It just tells us that we need to spend more time together. There are shocking friends who did really well and i have no idea how did they do it. Then i also realised one thing. Being a true friend yes, needs to know nearly everything. It does require paying attention to your friend. But you wont know anything if your friend doesnt tell you anything.I did something that i think is pretty stupid and it isnt something i havent done before. There are some people who wouldnt allow you to get into their heads. And, i seriously care about the friendship i have with my friends.

A true friend would be the utmost understanding one.That's what i think.

2007-04-21T10:17:00.000-07:00

Hi, i can go screw myself already. God is not a good friend, he gave me a school but took all my friends.

2007-04-21T06:24:00.000-07:00

Create your own Friend Test here
Try this, i think its damn cool.

2007-04-19T09:22:00.000-07:00

Hi. I'm here today to talk about friends again. Now, close your eyes. Picture yourself having something interesting to talk about. Which friend of your's comes into your mind first? It may be a family member or a friend. If that person is a friend, good for you. For me, i love my friends. I care alot about my friends and the last thing i would want to see is them be unhappy. I feel very unhappy now. There is a reason why. I dont take sides. Anyway, for me, i think that quarrels are for people who dont understand you. I myself, will not quarrel with anybody who i consider as my friend. But if that friend quarrels with me, i would make an effort to say sorry even if im not wrong. This would show that i care and it would affect the person in time to come. Oh ya, i realised something. From now on, i will try not to judge people or even to call them childish. This is because i think that everyone has their own way of thinking or doing things. We cant call them childish just because we are not on the same level. It is simply because we have a different brain. If you really care, it will show. I dont care what you are thinking abt me when you are reading this. Cuz i know that i am a good person who doesnt plot or scheme or else i will rot in hell. Goodnight.

Please make the fighting stop, its just a misunderstanding.

2007-04-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

I'm like starting to worry already. I fear that all my classmates will know more about fashion then me. The little things i know will not longer matter anymore. There will be 2 types of people in my class. The "angmoh" fashion & "jap" fashion. I am definitely the "angmoh" type one. I thought about it but then decided not to worry anymore as im not gonna care if i do better than them or not. I'm just gonna learn what i love learning and do what i love to do.

Fashion, has a total different meaning to everybody.

2007-04-17T06:49:00.000-07:00

Hi. I just had my first day of orientation today. It sucked! I did not enjoy it, not at all. (other then ogling at hot babes.) Maybe its because i didnt feel comfortable being in a new environment alone or because im not good at making friends. But i seriously didnt like it, not at all. Thank god i saw my cousin jeremy and he brought me to the library to use msn.Hahah. Then i decided to run away from orientation after getting a number from one of the guy in ADM. He is kinda cute. Oh ya, thankfully, my course is filled with mostly pretty girls and 4-5 guys. I still do not know about my class and the schedule. Im dead. Then i ran away to meet them at PS. Had fun again. I always have fun when im with them. Okay. Then im home early today and im skipping orientation camp tmr! It's not compulsory anyway. Im not that type of orientation camp person as im not friendly at all. Im meeting leonard they all go shopping tmr. Hope i can control and not buy anything. I'm broke.

Happy 17th Birthday Pearlyn Chua!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-15T00:16:00.000-07:00

Hi. I am currently rotting at home. I dont have anywhere to go to and there is only leonard, weehow and weiting online. I'm bored, damn bored. I am going to be home alone soon. I dont want to go to my grand's house. I'm still hoping someone would call me and ask me out.

Pearlyn's birthday celebration!

2007-04-14T10:07:00.000-07:00

All of us!
Star of the night and I.
Kaixin and i acting emo.
Believe me, it wasnt the first picture.
Mr Relunctant and Ms No Face.

Today was the first day i enjoyed slacking at home. I tried to rewrite my song in a more emo way but i failed. Then went for pearlyn's bday celebration. Here are some random pictures :

2007-04-13T10:11:00.000-07:00

Damn fun day. Firstly shopping then dinner. Seriously damn fun. Slacked at gardens for quite a time. I am kinda tired now. No inspiration at the moment. Here though, is a poem wrote by stephanie teo:

sanyo the photographer,
always want a perfect picture,
whenever he fails to capture,
our lives will be there for him to torture.

Hahahah, Quite cool lah. Oh and here are some random pics we took just now.

2007-04-12T06:12:00.000-07:00

Hi its me. back again. I have a new hobby and it would be..... writing songs. You must be thinking :"seriously? you dont even know how. " Ya you are right but i just dont care because i just enjoy it. I already got 2 of them half written. I have 3 titles in mind. Too bad i dont have a voice or else i would be singing them myself. The 3 titles are :

The sun will shine again;

Let's not pretend to care &

Do i want your love tonight?

So, i had a really fun time in the past few days. I miss the redang trip. I love my friends.

Love.

2007-04-10T06:00:00.000-07:00

I just watched the movie " Because i said so ". It got me thinking. Love, no one can really describe it. You may never know the meaning of it. Love, does it happen to everyone? Or does it even happen to anyone? We, will never know. But, the love we know now, is about 2 people's lifes crossing. It may or may not last. Many people marry, thinking that they love the person but ends up divorcing when their love dies down. Some may call it a "fling", some would call it a "mistake", others would still call it " love" ; "Love that never lasts". How do you know when you're in love? Is it the mere missing of the person? Or that nostalgic feeling when you think of him/her? Many people say that in life, love is the true meaning of living. But what about those people who havent fall in love or been in love before? Would we say that their lives would be a waste? Or would we say that they are the sad ones who are the God's mistakes? It's hard, to tell if its love. It is never about people who "break-patch" oftenly. Love, is sacred. Before you say the phrase " I love you" or " I dont love you anymore" , think twice think thrice. You better mean it. But dont be afraid of misplacing your love because maybe that's what its about.Trying, failing and then finally succeeding. Love.

When love comes around, boys and girls will laugh out loud.

2007-04-09T10:12:00.000-07:00

I just enjoy the late night mac deliveries. That's the time when i have the time to my own. The thinking time. Today, i thought about my love life.I'm not young anymore. Since i want to get married young, i should start scouting for my future wife already. I will most probably marry my next girlfriend. It is time i pull out every single resort. Anyway, i went to chomp chomp to celebrate with the guys. hahah. then went to ice-cube, then to alvin's house to slack. I just finished my mac. From today onwards, im going to built up my life, my character. I'm not gonna live my life unfulfillingly. I am going to make a bond so strong, it lasts forever. Good night.

The days are coming, you are just gonna get going.

2007-04-08T22:39:00.000-07:00

Nothing can describe the happiness i have now. You know what? I finally see the sun.

JASPER GOH JIA QING,

Congratulations, you have been offered admission to Level 1.1 of the followinf full-time course, commencing 23rd april 2007 :

APPAREL DESIGN & MERCHANDISING

HAHAHAHAHH. i cant believe it! I got it this morning and i was screaming at the lobby. I wanted to call everyone but they were either in school or still sleeping. The thing is, the documents are really scary, really. I need to go do a checkup and i think im damn late lah. My house no printer somemore. I need help! :)

REDANG TRIP.

2007-04-08T09:51:00.000-07:00

I got back safely! Here is the latest update on what happened during the redang trip.

Day 1 : Thurs night. Few of them came to see us off and a few sent smses. Thank you very much :) and not to forget weiping who rushed down to pass me my mp3 but was sadly late for 5 mins. But thanks for the effort. Then we were in the coach then alighted at yong peng to have supper. We had RAMLY burger! Hahah. Damn shiok. Then went back to the bus to sleep.

Day 2 : We reached the jetty at about 8.30am and waited for the boat to fetch us at 9am. The boat ride was nearly an hour long and was simply, rocky and wet. It is better than a roller coaster ride. We finally saw our destination and alighted. There wasnt a jetty so everytime we wanted to board or alight, we would get wet. We got a whole kampong house to ourselves. The 6 of us were so scared that we shared a room. Alvin got a bed and the rest of us got cosy in 2 queen sized beds. Cool place. We slacked in our house for about an hour before heading out for lunch. Fish was great. Then my first time snorkeling was so fun! We took a boat ride to an more stable wave place and snorkelled there. Corals and fishes are so beautiful. We headed back and then had our own free time throughout the day. We played volleyball, soccer and we swam in the sea. The sea was so nice and clear and the waves totally rocked. Dinner came. Sqweet rocks. Than we had our first night there and i learned how to play fifa psp.

Day 3 : Woke up at 7plus. We went to have breakfast, meegoreng and eggs. After that, we got to go snorkel again in another place. There many many people there. We took damn lots of pictures. "beautiful pictures" . Hahah. Snorkeling was real fun. real fun. Then we took the boat back to have lunch before going to another redang island. The other island was ten times bigger and had almost everything. EVERYTHING. We stayed there till about 6 before heading back. Oh ya, i bonded with 2 kids especially a boy named weiyi. He is 7 this year and he is "bo gay". He calles me "San Yi gor gor" instead of "Sanyo gor gor". Then everyone there started calling me that. They decided to stick around me. I allowed them to bury me in the sand but they took such a long time that my face turned blood red. It was burnt badly. But i was glad they had fun. I had fun too. Then i carried sanyi di di go play with the waves and had much fun. It has been such a long time since i was young, young like him. Then dinner came. BBQ. We cooked alot of things and ate ourselves away. Then there was a "campfire". It was so huge, we thought some planes might come and "save" us. We went back to our rooms and scared the shit out of ourselves before turning in. Ohya, leonard and shifu enjoyed calling me yian kut ku. Ask them why.

Day 4: We woke up late cuz the ten men didnt ride anymore. Had breakfast before packing up to leave. We waited for the boat and took last min photos. How cool. Then we went back to the jetty and changed as we were all wet. Then took the bus back .Stopped for lunch, dinner and the usual toilet breaks. Lunch and dinner was great. Then reached singapore at about 12. Just reached home and gonna go sleep. I still feel as if im still on the boat. I really enjoyed the trip very much and am looking forward to the next one. Good night. :)

2007-04-04T09:55:00.000-07:00

I'm having the light feeling now. I just picked up a book just now and realised that it's been a really long time since i read a book. So i've decided to buy that book. It may be fate,cuz the book is about dying, having a 2nd chance and cherishing people around you. This is all im thinking about now. I've decided to bring the book for the trip as i think i will be a loner after ruining somethings. Gosh, i suck. Anyway, I may not return from the trip anymore ( as some people says it) but who cares. Dont miss me while i'm gone. I'm going to pack my stuffs already. bye people, i'll miss you. :)

When he went blundering back to God,
His songs half written, his work half done,
Who knows what paths his bruised feet trod,
What hills of peace or pain he won?

I hope God smiled and took his hand,
And said, "Poor truant, passionate fool!
Life's book is hard to understand:
Why couldst thou not remain at school?"

2007-04-03T20:43:00.000-07:00

Something happened yesterday night. I couldnt sleep. I dont know what to do anymore. I'm beginning to realise things. I know that im going to try my best. I hope we're still friends. There are things in life that i dream of but will never have. Actually, i dont even have a single thing i want. I am feeling weird again now. I need help. I'm keeping calm. All i have to say is that i'm sorry and you know i would never do anything against you.

When everything in the world turn against you, i'll be there to comfort you.

2007-04-03T09:36:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling kind of inspirative now. I just found a new thing to do. Try out google's image search. I enjoy viewing the pictures one by one and think. I also seriously like a few songs and i will never get bored of listening to them. I suddenly feel like being a producer and produce movies. I think it will be damn cool. Everyone has a story to tell and i want to help them. I already have a few stories to tell already, including mine. Btw, i truely agree that in life, it doesnt matter if you are a winner or a loser. But seriously, dont be sarcastic or jealous. It is like a rocking chair, it keeps you moving but gets you nowhere. Oh and andy wants me to say that im actually the one who pose him in buying that white berms. Okay im finally going back to band tomorrow. take care.

Let's leave ourselves a beautiful story.

2007-04-02T08:59:00.000-07:00

When somebody says something to criticize me, i wouldnt retaliate. This is because i dont want to hurt their feelings because i know how hurting it is to be criticized. Although the person reading it will know im talking about him or her but i just wanna say that i know that he or she is kidding about the stuffs he or she said. Style, is not defined like that. People may think i do not have style but its okay because i know that everybody appreciate things in a different way. You may think its nice but the others may think its not. I hid the truth when asked of opinions but now, im so going to be truthful no matter what. I will try to gain confidence. That is what im lacking of.

You have no idea how understanding a true friend can be.

2007-04-02T08:42:00.000-07:00

I enjoyed the day today. Firstly, i wanna thank my mother cuz she has been cooking breakfast for me nearly everyday. Imagine waking up everyday and having hams, sausages, eggs and orange juice served to you? damn cool right. Okay, then i went to run a few errands with her before meeting ah chow and andy to go town meet the rest. Walked around town for a few hours before the guys went home and leaving me with andy only. Oh yeah, andy and shifu posed me by buying the same white berms. HAHAHAHAH. so i accompanied andy to walk around town then nicholas came to find us. 3 of us walked around until my mum and sis called me. andy was supposed to leave with me but his friend needed something so too bad. Then came home. Ive been looking for a new topic but yet had no inspiration yet. Maybe later in the middle of the night. Alright. Take care.

2007-04-01T09:50:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day where i felt was long. Maybe it was because of my phone's lag behind of 2 hours but i think it was because i had fun. Alright. Yesterday, 31st of April 11.55pm. I was at the doorstep of vivian's house wanting to surprise her. BUT i realised my phone couldnt call or sms when i have already lighten the candles. It was already half-burnt until my help came. Dewei. So i used his phone to call vivian and asked her to open the door. The 2 of us sang her a birthday song and she was kinda touched, i hope. lol. Then we stayed in the house waiting for our next surprise , royston. BUT royston came home earlier than we expected so we hid in vivian's room for quite awhile before the rest of the gang appeared. Then we shocked royston. His face was priceless. Lol. Then we watch JACKASS 2. Damn funny. And their bro and sis-in-law ordered mac for us. thank you. Then went home at 2am. Then i didnt know my phone had a problem. It was alrd 11.30 when andy called me but i thought he was playing a prank on me cuz my phone reads 8.30. I woke up at the real time 1 and still thought it was 10. Then went to play a little of street soccer and was damn on-form. Hatrick? Damn cool. Then the field got problem so in the end, upper court. GROUPIE TRASHED CP!!! lol. the score is 4-3 but shld be 4-1 cuz mr stan own goaled one and the other was an obvious offside. But it is still damn cool. I love it.

I finally prayed today, but it got things worse.

2007-03-31T07:40:00.000-07:00

Hi. I'm here to talk about different opinions again. You know the saying of being perfect? Its like everyone is not perfect. But i beg to differ. I think that everyone is perfect. The only reason why we think we are not perfect is because people think we are not perfect. Everything we do in life is right, even if its wrong, because this is what life is all about. Everything happens. So we dont think we are perfect because our characters clashes with others'. This gives me the inspiration to the next topic : Destiny. But i will talk about it in the next post. Anyway, its about to be 1st ofApril soon so....

Happy Birthday to my Besties ROYSTON and VIVIAN KOH!!!!!

Tomorrow is the match between Groupie and CP, we gonna trash them. I'm excited. I hope no one uses the upper court at 3pm. Alright. Goodnight.