Monday, October 30, 2006 . 1:40 AM

Sad.... today chinese o levels and i have flu.... i feel so darn bad.... flu made me blur and i was really careless, 3 put 1, 2 put 4. Only realised it after the paper. So chinese should be getting c6. I was aiming a b4... Anyway, thurs, vanda and jacx came over to my house to study. i think it was fun but i didnt really studied. I dont regret not studying, i just feel sad. Something happened to me which i donno what. but my studying spirit was destroyed 2 weeks ago. Sad. I only have HIM to aid me now.I pray. On fri, didnt do much... went to catch movie death note. I love that movie. The plot just rocks la. Haha. anyway there were about 15? of us. After the movie, i went to the airport with mum and sis to send uncle eugene and aunty sally off. They going to perth. cool. Sat... went to ouh at 11.30am and studied there. Played taboo for a whhile too. Then there was snl. Snl was cool. After that, we played taboo again. We were all crazy all the way home. What a great day. btw knew a new friend, her name is melanie. Sun.... went to first service. i sat there with steph and i nearly fell asleep. Left the service 3quarter cuz steph lost her phone. We cant believe this happened in the church la. Anyway i went for second service too and it was great. i felt God's presence i think. Haha. yup. then after that went to hougang mall to buy cake for dinglong and went to give him a surprise at his house downstairs. Haha. then went to zhanyi house to give him another surprise. How cool? damn cool. then after that, i went home. (i didnt give the surprise alone) Thats all. See ya...

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 . 3:20 AM

Sian... that day i typed so much and then suddenly the site was d/c then i damn pissed so i decided not to type. Go to my friendster, my pics will tell the story. But it was a cool day. Anyway, it sucks.. seriously. I feel as if nothing in this world is meaningful.. i need a shrink, i need to stop thinking abt all this. help!

Saturday, October 21, 2006 . 8:06 AM

Hmm. Yesterday was relatively fun. Went to eat my favourite duck rice. yeah! then went to Pan Pac for tea with aunts and siblings. Btw today went to Fion's house in the morning to help move stuffs. She is GETTING MARRIED TOMORROW!!!!!! haha. So excited!!! My cousin getting married. Wow. haha. Years go by really really fast! She was like my sis for 17 years. Haha. Well gonna blog about her wedding some other day. (Which is definitely after tomorrow) Btw i dunno why but maybe its because of the stress from os. I've been feeling very moody lately. I really cant stand it..... SERIOUSLY. I need a shrink. I need God. Btw i just went to strph's blog and i saw this quiz. I'm gonna do it cuz tonight is a sleepless night.

FRIEND WHO'S NAMES STARTSWITH A "S"A: Samantha or Stephanie or so many else
Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLSA: Vivian
Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGEYOU RECEIVED SAY?A: POA lesson on wednesday 8-10am
Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?A: NEVER
Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?A: nope. relatively straight
Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?A: dunno.
Q: WHO'S THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOURLIFE? A: MY MUM.
Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY A LOT?A: : You're a fashion disaster
Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? A: Duck rice
Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?A: I cant blog with you sitting next to me - to fion.
Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?A: yep.
Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIEDARKO?A: ???, never even heard of it
Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?A: hunting? as in ingame?
Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?A: definitely
Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "ILOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?A: hmm, today to my parents
Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHTNOW?A: Studying or sleeping
Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?A: Sissy boy
Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRSTSIGHT?A: hmm, i do but so far it hasnt happened.
Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THEFAMILY ?A: my brother
Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?A: yup
Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?A:I dunno. All i know is that i sleepwalk.
Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?A: yup, if and when i do clean up
Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?A: A few years ago. My bro's.
Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOUSLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?A: youth camp
Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?A: doesnt apply to me
Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PASTTWO WEEKS?A: The Devil Wears Prada. Wonderful wonderful movie!
Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UPWITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYINGFOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?A: nope, i guess they're just really REALLY bored


1.BestMale friend: Royston and Dillon
2.Female friend:Vivian and my cell mates.
3.Vacation: Japan and Australia?. Cant decide
4. Day of the week: Saturday.5. Food: i have no idea.
6. Memory:I dunno. Everything is nice to me.

Last1. Person you saw at the moment: Fion.
2.Talked to on the phone: Dad
3. Hugged: mum
4. Person u texted:Jacx
Today Is: Sat
2. Got any plans: nope, it's already night
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: Nothing. Tomorrow is Great.

Favorites
1. Number(s):23 and 73
2. Song: don't laugh, but right now, it's Nothing In This World by Paris Hilton
3.Color: basically anything thats in.
4. Season: i think i'd really like spring or autumn though ive never experienced it. but between summer and winter, i'd say winter

Currently
1. Missing someone:Yes.
2. Mood: Depressed


True or False
I am a morning person:T
I am a perfectionist: A little.
I am an only child: F
I am currently in my pajamas: F
I am online 24/7: F
I am very shy around the opposite gender: F
I can be paranoid at times: T
I currently regret something that I have done: T
I enjoy talking on the phone: T
I have a lot to learn: TI have a secret:
T--------------------------------

IF you get more than 30 you're paranoid.If you get 10 or less you're fearless.People who don't have any are dummies who want people to think they are tough stuff.

I
Fear...[x] the dark[x] staying single forever[] being a parent[] giving birth[x] being myself in front of others[xxx] open spaces or closed spaces[x] heights[] black cats[] dogs[] birds[] fish[] spiders, ticks and/or other insects[] driving or being in cars[] flying[] flowers or other plants[] being touched[] fire[x]deep water[] the ocean[x] failure[] success[] thunder/lightning[] frogs/toads[] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad[] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom[] mice/rats[x] jumping from high places[] snow[] rain[] wind[]crossing bridges[xxx] death[] Heaven[x] being robbed[] cotton balls[x] cemeteries[x] clowns[x] large crowds[] men[] women[x] having great responsibility[] doctors, including dentists[x] tornadoes[x] hurricanes[x] diseases[x] snakes[x] sharks[] Friday the 13th[x] poverty[x] ghosts[] Halloween[] school[] trains or railroads[] odd ..s[] even ..s[xxx] being alone[x] being blind[x] being deaf[] growing up[] monsters under my bed[x] creepy noises in the night[] bee stings[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals[] needles[] blood[] dinosaurs[] the welcome mat[] public restrooms[]roller coasters[]Santa, Easter bunny, Barney.


NOW.....How old are you?17Where do you go to school? SSS.Where do you live? Srgn.Where do you hang out?urm.. school and homeHow is your hair style? suckyDo you have braces? nopeDo you wear glasses?yupWho is your best friend?Roy and Vian. i have many good friends =)Still talk to any of your old friends?yup!Who is your celebrity crush?Eva Longoria.Who is your regular-person crush?not gonna tell ya.How many piercings do you have?noneHow many tattoos?noneWhat kind of car do you drive?still nothingWhat is your favorite singer/group?nothingHave you smoked a cigarette?nopeHave you gotten drunk or high?not drunk, maybe just a little high. ok a lot.Have you been to a real party?nope

Yup thats all srry for the long stuff! haha.

Friday, October 20, 2006 . 12:43 AM

On the 19th of october.... It was the day of sci prac. I think im gonna fail. Sick. Then the worse thing is that i couldnt sleep at night. I hate the thought of death. I was thinking about where are you gonna go after you are dead? I am a Christian and im supposed to believe that ill go to heaven. But i'm very afraid that everything may not be true. And they say u re gonna spend your life eternity there. I'll be glad to be able to go to heaven but im afraid eternity is a word to strong. If i go to hell, i may be put into a little black box with nothing to do. Imagine that.

When disasters fall upon the world, there will only be two types of people.

1. They are the people who dont have a belief and when such things happen, they are very afraid as they know that they can rely on no one else.

2.They are the people who wont be scared as they know that no matter what, they have Someone out there looking out for them.

Which one are you? I chose 2.

I hate death, i hate hell, i hate saturn that old blood hound.

Today woke up and went to school. Dont feel well. Maths test sucked. Didnt know how to do anything. Sad. How to take "o" levels ? Came home after eating very nice chicken rice. Shiok. Then slept till now and my head still hurts. Going out later to city hall to eat very nice duck rice. Haha. Hope i will have a good night sleep tonight.

I love my Mum, I love all my friends. I love you.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 . 7:19 PM

Woke up late yesterday, didnt got to school for remedial. Went to study with vivian at compass point KFC at around 12. Then roy and jem came to join us. It's been about a year since i saw jem. Haha nice hair la. Anyway, we studied together and also talked. Guess what we talked about? End of your lifes and how much radiation affects the growth of your dick. Yup. We also talked about the stuffs we're gonna do after the os. How cool. Oh ya, jem says that he wanna go NAFA too. hahah. maybe will see him there next yr. I havent decide whether i wanna take the Raffles's Bachelor with honours in Fashion Design, or NAFA's diploma in Fashion Design or Temasek Poly's Apparel design. Hmmm... sad. Oh, siangheng came to join us too cuz he was sleeping. Yup. We studied and chat till abt 10 before going home. Realised we stayed at KFC for nearly 10 hours.WOW. Anyway, I love Paris Hilton.

Dreamers are losers
Losers can be winners
Losers arent remembered
Its bad for a person to be poor
Its sad for a person to be ugly
But it really sucks for a person to be both.

Monday, October 16, 2006 . 12:40 AM

Sad.... woke up early today cuz having bad stomach. Been to the toilet like alot of times. I'm home alone now. Haha. Wanna study but dont feel good so dont think my brain will be able to take in anything. Sad la sad la. BUT lucky its not gastric flu. lol. or else no need take o levels le. Hmm... im like super bored now. My tummy hurts like hell. Speaking of hell , i never thought my Hellma would live this long. lol. I named her Hellma becoz her colour is red. Hmm... hope she will survive with me untill the os......

Glory to the people who aren't afraid of death,
Dreamy is the past, Unclear is the future.
I take out the trash and left it by the road, how did it end up here?
Nobody knows.

Home alone sucks.... it just sucks...

Sunday, October 15, 2006 . 7:33 AM

Saturday.... nth much.... studied the whole afternoon then went for snl. So i was supposed to plan the games for snl tonight. So i came up with a game that i thought was fun but others found it boring. It's called "Faboo". Obviously its Fashion Taboo. People who understand me would find it fun. I think i seriously suck. I cant find anything thats good abt me. Btw there's a secret that im gonna share with you guys today. I always thought that i could act and i didnt want anyone to find out that i suffer from stagefright. Yes i do. It's something i found out two years ago. I didnt tell anyone including myself as i love acting. I thought i could overcome it but i couldnt. So yup, I cant act ; I suck. Btw im not going to church from today onwards. Might go back again after os.
This is just what SiangHeng told me :


If you love your mate and want the relationship to
grow and evolve, you've got to learn how to close one
eye and not let every little thing bother
you. You and your mate have many different
expectations, emotional needs, values, dreams,
weaknesses, and strengths. You are two unique
individual children of God who have decided to share a
life together.



Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry",
not "where are you', but "I'm right here", not "how
could you"; but "I understand"; not
"I wish you
were";but "I'm thankful you are".


Neither one of you are perfect, but are you perfect
for each other?

Yup so i was chatting to a few people including VIVIAN. haha she wanted me to mention her in the blog so heres a section just for you. Vivian, well didnt see her for quite a long time alrd. She seems to be well (which is good). I'm glad to see her working so hard. I think she is gonna do well for her Os unless God isnt gonna be fair to her. lol. Hmm, hope ill study as hard as her. lol. So... yup may YOU continue to work hard and "reap" well. Haha.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006 . 11:31 PM

Well..... lets see what interesting.... oh ya. Amanda's Mid Autumn Festival bbq. lol. great fun there. Thanks girl! Ok. I i'm like feeling kinda emo now. It was Graduation day. It suck. But i really got to see how devoted some teachers are. After that, went to the canteen. Something happened that made me feel like i just slapped myself. I'm amazed at how good was i in managing my anger. I went home straight and i was thinking about my life all the way home.
All right , i have to face it. My life suck. I remember a friend said to me once : Everyone has problems in their lifes, its just that we dont see it. But i think that it isnt true. I think that God is really unfair. I'm upset with Him and I'm angry with myyself. I really dont want to be the person i am now. I dont even know why im still going to church when i feel n0thing there. Sad.

Behind that blissful smile hides a sorrow frown.

Thats all i have to say today. Sorry for complaining so much.

I seriously admire people who has the courage commit suicide.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006 . 6:29 AM

Saturday.... Jacintha came over to my house and we watched John Tucker Must Die. Quite nice la.lol. Then we realised that we were going to be late for SNL so we decided to take a cab. The cab uncle think we nice to cheat then eat our money. lol. Nvm. SNL was chill out night. There was ice-cream and FONDUE!!! lol. i LOVE fondue!!! hahaha. yes la. then we played a little games then went home. Slept at about 11?
Sunday, i woke up late as usual haha. then met jacintha at MRT to go. Service was as usual... After service we went to eat lunch then sis and i went to ah ma house. Stayed there till abt 6 then went to Tampinese mall then went to Settlers cafe at Katong.That place damn nice la. lol. Got alot of games to play. We had great fun! Then went home sleep!
Monday. Woke up and went to school. School was.... hmm as usual i guess? haha. Nothing much. After that went to city hall with family to eat dinner and Ben and Jerry's!!! Hahaha. Yup then we went home. i wanted to sleep earlier but decided to watch ANTM.
Tuesday.... I went to school as usual, then studied POA in school then came home to do maths. I suck in maths la, seriously. Haha. Going to sleep le.
Btw i wanna recommend a movie which is called C.R.A.Z.Y. haha. i saw it on many magazines and it was said to be one of the best movie this year so idecided to watch. Hmmm.... it is good:). Btw Zhang ziyi would be fightiing with Gong Li again this year end cuz both their movie of the year will be releasing one after another. See ya.